after all

Filed under: General,Uncategorized — Amy @ 2:05 am

This constant forward movement
has made a blur of everything.
Even you
are not as clear
as even yesterday.

Is it bad that I miss you
not with the decapitating pain
of a crushed bone –
not with the haunting memory
of a missing limb –
but with the sweet senese
of a secret
I can’t wait to reveal?

After all, loving you
does not hurt.

I do not bruise
remembering your touch,
I do not burn
imagining your breath,
I do not cry acid tears
when your eyes
dance circles around me
even in this photograph,
even in my mind.

Is it bad that I do not fear this slight separation?
This pause?
This insignificant
between our life and



After all, I am never alone.
You are here, even here,
even now.

You are the business man
sleeping soundly in the next seat.
You are the impatient woman in 15B
who cannot wait to land.

You are Joni Mitchell’s sweet
sweet voice and
you are a hundred country songs that leave me
choked up
every time.

You are the baby girl several rows ahead.
You are every laugh from my
tiny tiny screen and every
witty line of dialogue in Ocean’s 12.

How can I miss you any other way?

You are my pilot
after all.

You bring me home.


  1. I will trade you a bit of prose for your lovely poem:

    The loved traveler measures their journey by the beat of a heart that is far away. Slow but sure steps carry them outward, while ever-quickening strides usher their return.

    Comment by zak — June 14, 2005 @ 7:46 pm

  2. Homesick Traveler Blues

    My friend Amy has a nice post about the feelings of the homesick traveler….

    Trackback by Buddha John Two Fish — June 14, 2005 @ 7:50 pm

  3. i love this. and love that you’re writing again (albeit sporadically). i’m planning to gack and give you full credit wherever it ends up (in an email to S proclaiming your brilliance or maybe on my LJ site). :o) love you milt

    Comment by carin13 — June 15, 2005 @ 7:33 pm

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